So idk if anybody noticed but I didn't post a Fallen Angels chapter on Wednesday. It's Friday now. Last week I said that I didn't have any more chapters stocked up so I needed to finish one. Well, I didn't. In fact, I didn't even start one. I actually haven't started writing a chapter in around a month now. I've kind of just lost the will to. Here are some reasons why I suppose:
Irl stuff. Namely band camp. I've had band camp everyday for the past two weeks. It's from 8-3 and by the time I'm done I'm completely worn out and have no will to do anything productive. Along with band camp I have a summer assignment I've really been trying to get done so the moments when I have some will to do anything I have to use that energy on homework.
Writer's block. So, back when I came up with the idea for Fallen Angels I wrote an outline that stated how things were going to go. Remember on I think it was chapter 17 (or somewhere around there) when I said that chapter was going to originally be the last chapter, but I'd changed the story midway through? Yeah, so I haven't had an outline for a while, and because of that I've been having frequent writer's blocks. I only really announced one of them back when I took a break, but I've had many since then when I either would have to force myself to come up with something or I'd go along time just using stored up chapters and not writing anything. Anyways, I'm having a really bad writer's block. Write outlines. They help.
Not many people actually read this fan fic anymore. Back when I first started writing this story, the chapters could get to like 10 likes and multiple comments of people wanting to be pinged and complimenting the story. These days I never get more than 2-4 likes and the comment section is completely empty. Of course, this makes sense. I made the mistake of making Fallen Angels way too long. It's around a year old now. Most people who originally wanted to read it don't anymore and some don't even get on the Fandom anymore. I can't draw in new readers because it's so long. It's over 100 pages now guys. Nobody wants to read 100 pages of a fan fiction just to catch up. I write fan fiction to practice for writing actual novels. Actually, I wanted Fallen Angels to be an actual novel. The only reason I made it a fan fic is because I really wanted to make Techno a piglin. His character was one of the first things I came up for for this story and I wanted the gold thing, and the voices thing, and the attacking thing, and the need to be in the Nether thing. I see now that I shouldn't make fan fictions this long. Now, the reason this affects my writing is because the way I get myself to write is to think that I have to post that way my readers can read my story. I'm doing it for them, not for me. I don't want to let them down. When I have practically no readers, I lose the will to write and post. I don't even check the Fandom hardly at all to see how many likes and comments I get anymore because I've just accepted that it's not going to be very many.
Speaking of not checking the Fandom, that is reason number four. I don't get on the Fandom really anymore. I have been a part of this for over a year and a half now and I've kind of lost interest. I used to read a bunch of posts and constantly be checking here to see if there was new lore, but I don't do that anymore. I'm not longer really interested in the dsmp so I have no will to get on the Fandom. Now, I still enjoy writing fan fiction because I just see i as stories utilizing pre-made characters. I mean, Fallen Angels was hardly a fan fiction. I just used the same characters with vaguely similar personalities and threw in some references. I don't really want to get on the Fandom anymore and so that makes me forget and not really want to post.
So yeah. I don't know. I've lost my will to write Fallen Angels. I want to finish it because I don't want to write anything else until I do. It just might not be a consistent schedule anymore. No longer every Wednesday. Just whenever I manage to finish a chapter. Hopefully that's soon.
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