You at school rn? What is your time zone?

PST (PDT? idk)

I literally cry whenever i see a video mentioning him- if i see fanart im okay but if its a video i just cry-

I just finished school lol

The thing is

I used to visit the city where he LIVED

WHAT IF I WALKED PAST HIM OR SOMETHING

AND I DIDN'T KNOW

whenever i hear his name i get sad

Nah I know how you feel.

For a while I just couldn’t draw or write about him. Now I can, luckily, but hearing his voice and stuff is still hard.

I use to cry everytime I was reminded of him. I still sometimes do, I recommend not holding it in and just letting it out. But I also recommend to try and push through it.

(Also PS, don’t be afraid to cry at school. I’ve done it multiple times and no one has ever said anything mean. I’ve been comforted more than anything. Most likely people won’t care.)

Yes, yes. I just have an inner mental breakdown in the middle of class

The night I found out he was dead. I just like cried. There and then. Watched a bunch of tributes to him. It’s worse that I have a bad habit of masking emotions like sadness or anger. At the end of the day I just cry. Honestly it’s a bad habit though. I have a hard time telling someone when I feel sad or find what they’re saying to hurt. It’s worse that I have anxiety. I feel the need to hide it.

PS. This is the most I’ve told someone. Thanks for listening.